In a week, I turn 30. I'm very much looking forward to it, but a small part of me is dreading it. Society deems women of a certain age unworthy of... everything, and I am now about to be a woman of a certain age. There are so many exciting things about aging, but my existence has always and almost solely been validated for the way I look. Who I am is just a bonus to the way I look for the man I'll one day trap/catch. The world has told me so many things about aging and my existence in the world. I would be lying if I said I hadn't ended up on the kitchen floor in a full on panic attack about aging in society.
Tag: Anxiety
On Anxiety: Getting Lost in the Woods
Anxiety is something I have always lived with. So often, I can't name the thing making me anxious because it is all of the things all at once all of the time.
11… Ways I Have Avoided Dealing With 2020
It's been one hell of a fucked up year, and I'm scared 2021 likes a dare. I've been doing my best to avoid confronting all the things this year has brought to the table.
11… Ways Life is Being Difficult Right Now
I pooped my pants today. Not kidding. It's not something we're supposed to talk about, but it's part of my life due to health issues. So it got me thinking about the ways life is being difficult right now.
Isolation Creation
My quarantine hasn't been filled with finding a new passion, getting in shape, writing the next great American novel, or baking sourdough bread. I haven't been able to be apart of #isolationcreation the way I wish I could've been. My version was raising the puppies.
Due Date-Versary
Today is my Due Date-Versary. Had my body done its basic, biologically female task of staying pregnant five years ago, I would be celebrating my child's fifth birthday. Instead, I'm focusing on the happiness in my life. The joys I have today because I had a miscarriage instead of a baby.