RaeAnna + A Nerdy Lifestyle
These are the things that don’t fit into the other categories. There’s probably a pretty strong feminist agenda in here. I’m just living my life!
Self worth is something I place a high priority on... in other people. It doesn't even exist in my emotional vernacular. The entirety of my life, my worth has based on my appearance and what I can provide to others. Worth and love have always been transactional. I'm no innocent, but I have been left to fend for myself, scrounging for and happily accepting any love, even if all the only love I can find has been coupled with abuse and rape.
Love and pain are all but synonyms in my mind. The two cannot exist apart from each other. Love is always accompanied by heart break, and I'm okay with that. Pain has been my greatest, most consistent teacher.
"To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering." Friedrich Nietzsche
I wanted to make my solo camping trip to the Grand Canyon more than just time to center myself, connect with nature, and escape life's hustle. Driving through Arizona as the sun rose, I knew I wanted to take the opportunity to learn and challenge myself to find the people who lived in and around the Canyon for thousands of years before white people arrived to fuck shit up.
Happy 168th Homecoming to Cornell College. I doubt they've had 168 homecoming celebrations. Did homecoming even exist in 1853? (Cornell University sure didn't. Ha! We're the older, smaller, and better (not a subjective opinion, at all) cousin—literally—in Iowa. Easily confusable, I know.) As a die-hard alum, I filled my house with flowers in school colors in honor of homecoming.
I've spent a lifetime figuring out how to look as good as I possibly can while spending as little as possible. Here are some tricks I've learned to being bougie on a budget, but I've learned the bougiest thing I can be is happy.