I have spent thirty years ignoring that my sexuality exists, while also leveraging the shit out of it. A dissonant dichotomy, I've been avoiding completely.
Category: 11…
11…
A list of things, people, places, whosits, whatsit, and random things I write about on Mondays at 11:11.
11… Ways I’m Combatting My Executive Dysfunction Problem
I used to be an absolute pro at executive function... Then COVID happened. And I don't know how the fuck to do life anymore let alone be a successful human.
11… Phrases People Have Responded With to My Writing
I'm a writer specializing in social justice and a memoirist trying to change the world through awareness. Being open about the realities of life after rape and the mental struggles that go along with that puts me in an interesting position. People have quite the reactions and say some exceptionally dumb things.
11… Tidbits of Life I Avoid At All Costs
Life has taught me to keep people at a distance, to not trust, to not depend, to not open myself up. People have seldomly shown themselves to be worthy of trust, and so I live a guarded life, involving as few people as possible and relying on others with extreme rarity. I have subconsciously programmed my existence to avoid actions and circumstances that encourage and form intimacy between myself and another human. I recently started ruminating on what these things are, and I came up with a list longer than eleven, but these are a good start.
11… Things I Learned From Heart Break
Love and pain are all but synonyms in my mind. The two cannot exist apart from each other. Love is always accompanied by heart break, and I'm okay with that. Pain has been my greatest, most consistent teacher.
11… Things I Learned Camping the Grand Canyon
I wanted to make my solo camping trip to the Grand Canyon more than just time to center myself, connect with nature, and escape life's hustle. Driving through Arizona as the sun rose, I knew I wanted to take the opportunity to learn and challenge myself to find the people who lived in and around the Canyon for thousands of years before white people arrived to fuck shit up.