RaeAnna + A Nerdy Lifestyle
Music is a huge part of my life. So, this year, I made a playlist to keep me in check and also remind me it’s okay to be the bummer that I authentically am. Because I truly would not have a career or passion or drive without the depression, anxiety, abuse, and neurodivergence that make up the trauma responses I call my personality.
Life has been a traumatic, but I've put a lot of work into healing so I can be good to myself so I can be a good human to everyone. Even in the worst times when I had no control over my life, I had control over my body... I'd been restricted before with everything from a torn ACL to sprained feet; as a dancer, injuries happened. This. A broken dominant hand as a writer is very different. I felt like I was slowly dying.
Writing has always been the easiest way for me to explain all the feelings I find so difficult. I trend toward verbosity, but more often than not, I say nothing at all.
I used to be an absolute pro at executive function... Then COVID happened. And I don't know how the fuck to do life anymore let alone be a successful human.
I had a lot of plans for the last half of October. It was mostly: Get Shit Done. But I decided several months ago to apply to work the election. It went on the schedule. A few days a week turned into half of everyday for all of early voting. Yay! I'm doing my civic duty, but nothing else is going to happen in my life until the election is over.
Dreyer's English is the closest thing to porn for word nerds.