I love tradition. Vehemently. Whenever something brings me joy, there's a good chance I'll turn it into a tradition. I have so many small traditions that make the drudgery of every day life less drudgy.
Category: 11…
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A list of things, people, places, whosits, whatsit, and random things I write about on Mondays at 11:11.
11… Thoughts from Someone Knee Deep in Nihilism
Nature has always made me feel like me. Hope at the top of a mountain, but my soul feels all its feelings when my toes are in the ocean. I've been knee-deep in nihilism for a long time, and the solitude of the beach and lack of a vantage point brings up all the thoughts no one really wants to hear.
11… Phrases Partners Have Uttered in the Past
I'm single, but I’ve dated. 31, never married, no kids. I have yet to make someone projectile vomit when they look upon me. I have a pretty successful career, not lucrative, but successful. I’m tall. I wouldn’t say I’m a catch, but I have enough going for me that I could catch a date if I felt so inclined. I'm pretty confident, and I genuinely don't hate who I am. I have spent a good bit of my adulthood in relationships with people, and some of them have said some things that have somehow not affected my confidence. I like other people's opinions about me. Most of the time, it helps me grow... But these, not so much.
11… Unexpected Changes from Two Months of Regularish Lifting
April of 2022, I made the decision to consistently exercise. I did, then life happened. In November, I got a bougie ass gym membership. I've been lifting with regularishness for two months, and holy wow have there been some changes. I'm getting a new body, and I'm trying to figure out if I like it. But also what everyone else says about protein... I found out they're right.
11…ish Anthems in a Spotify Playlist for 2023
Music is a huge part of my life. So, this year, I made a playlist to keep me in check and also remind me it’s okay to be the bummer that I authentically am. Because I truly would not have a career or passion or drive without the depression, anxiety, abuse, and neurodivergence that make up the trauma responses I call my personality.
11… Phrases I Wish I Could Say
Writing has always been the easiest way for me to explain all the feelings I find so difficult. I trend toward verbosity, but more often than not, I say nothing at all.