I don't see what other people see when they look at my body. I see a living reminder of every horrific thing men have done to it.
Category: Lifestyle
These are the things that don’t fit into the other categories. There’s probably a pretty strong feminist agenda in here. I’m just living my life!
11… Ways I’m Combatting My Executive Dysfunction Problem
I used to be an absolute pro at executive function... Then COVID happened. And I don't know how the fuck to do life anymore let alone be a successful human.
11… Phrases People Have Responded With to My Writing
I'm a writer specializing in social justice and a memoirist trying to change the world through awareness. Being open about the realities of life after rape and the mental struggles that go along with that puts me in an interesting position. People have quite the reactions and say some exceptionally dumb things.
Seven Years Ago Tonight I Was Raped For the Last Time
Scrolling through Facebook's On This Day page, I was reminded that seven years ago tonight. I was raped for the last time.
Past Me Would Be So Disappointed In Present Me
I hate motivational mantras... But my least favorite are the "If past you could see you now, they'd be so proud." No. Past me would be very disappointed and even angry at the way my life looks now. I don't think this mantra is targeted at over achievers who were abused emotionally/psychologically/financially/physically/sexually over the course of 23(ish) years. But I'm not dead!
11… Tidbits of Life I Avoid At All Costs
Life has taught me to keep people at a distance, to not trust, to not depend, to not open myself up. People have seldomly shown themselves to be worthy of trust, and so I live a guarded life, involving as few people as possible and relying on others with extreme rarity. I have subconsciously programmed my existence to avoid actions and circumstances that encourage and form intimacy between myself and another human. I recently started ruminating on what these things are, and I came up with a list longer than eleven, but these are a good start.