RaeAnna + A Nerdy Lifestyle
I am so gay. Labels make me uncomfortable, but I'm a writer so I like defining things in words. As a human, I don't like being confined. My identity is ever changing, but I'm finally starting to live my life more authentically than I ever have before.
I am not trauma bonding. I will give the rundown of my past to new people in my life because I want them to find out the violence I've endured from me and not a tweet or Instagram post. It feels like the polite thing to do.
Brindle Market is a female-owned small business. Blending fashion with compassion, they are giving to the rescue animal community through awareness and donating 10% of proceeds.
Self worth is something I place a high priority on... in other people. It doesn't even exist in my emotional vernacular. The entirety of my life, my worth has based on my appearance and what I can provide to others. Worth and love have always been transactional. I'm no innocent, but I have been left to fend for myself, scrounging for and happily accepting any love, even if all the only love I can find has been coupled with abuse and rape.
Love and pain are all but synonyms in my mind. The two cannot exist apart from each other. Love is always accompanied by heart break, and I'm okay with that. Pain has been my greatest, most consistent teacher.
"To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering." Friedrich Nietzsche